On a Trigger Fuse: The Age of Rage, The Golden Age of Grifters and the Age of Incompetence

I remember my therapist telling me earlier in the year that she felt like I had regressed and she is probably right. Despite the 8 hours of sleep, meditation, working out, Church, fight training, I find myself so angry all the time. I’ve had many intense road rages even during work out, church and training days.  I come so close to losing it at times. Thank goodness I am not armed. I see this underlying anger and desperation in many of us around me all around America whether in California, New York, Texas or Michigan.

I’m literally seething. Seething rage is what I felt for most of 2024 and 2025. Everywhere I look I only see corruption or incompetence. Idiocy, laziness and weakness. I am dismayed at the mishandling and lack of support for Ukraine, Israel & burning the bridges with many of our close allies in Asia, Canada and Europe. 

Big incompetent bureaucracies run amok whether it’s FTC, FDA, SEC, FBI or the DOJ. Aided by grossly corrupt politicians at all levels of government “trying to get their bag.” We see the breakdown of law and order on many of our city streets, the open import of many millions of unskilled 3rd world immigrants, with a small portion of them criminals or terrorists, while we make it hellishly hard for those talented and skilled to come to America. 

I see brainwashed leftist woke students (usually pretty well off Trustafarians too) protesting for our enemies, enemies who would not think twice of extinguishing their lives aka (Gays for Gaza for example where ironically in Gaza homosexuality is banned). Brain worms infect their broken minds. I see insane right wing MAGA openly supporting Russia in their own quest for traditional values, not realizing they are just tools aka “useful idiots.”

We see a broken industrial base in America, a shrinking middle class that is trying to survive, Americans tearing each other down while our enemies circle us. Our enemy is CRINK=China, Russia, Iran & North Korea, I’d throw Venezuela in there too. Clear and present danger around us. Literally barbarians at our gates while most of the populace sinks into apathy, degeneration, denial and even nihilism in some cases. 

Will Manidis x-ed this incredible tweet describing the zeitgeist right now in the West, particularly in America: “underrated how severe the vibe shift was from the lockdown era. The spiritual environment of the world has meaningfully changed— violence is closer now, the light inside of everyone is buried deeper, everyone is grifting or scamming. It wasn’t like this four years back.”

On a personal micro level, I continue to struggle in my personal life, still dealing with the issues stemming from the 2020 pandemic lockdowns. 

I’m angry at myself and my weakness. I am angry at our government for doing this to us. I am also angry at the injustice I see around me. I am angry at the complacency of the Western populace who just bitch and moan about how their lives suck and how things are getting worse. All while doing nothing about it. Not even working on their own self improvement. 

But this is not me. I believe in taking my destiny into my own hands. I have agency and I take action to make things better. Through therapy I’ve learned my rage is the tip of the iceberg, and below the waterline it comes from my fear of losing control, fear of loss, fear of the crazy around me, fear of decline. So I go back to my own tools of the trade coming up in the world. I channel this rage. 

I follow the Sith code, I’ve made it my mantra: “Fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate, hatred leads to suffering…..but what the Jedi failed to teach you, what I have learned, is how to persevere, to pass through the suffering, and achieve ultimate power.”

It’s not pretty and I am clearly using “dirty” not clean fuel for motivation but it bloody works. 

This is pretty much the only thing motivating me these days to carry on through the pain and suffering. My mission which focuses me. I’ve never been a quitter. And I absolutely plan on doing a lot of good for my family, my community and Western society along this new journey. God help anyone who gets in the way.