Anger Management 201: My Constant Internal Battle

I had landed in Vancouver at the end of May 2025, and my dad picked me up. As my father was turning the corner on the road, some car behind us honked at us. I rolled down the window and gave the driver a middle finger. As we drove on, the guy sped up beside and glared at me, about to say something. I rolled down the window and yelled at him in rage: “WTF you going to do A–hole?, I will F–k you up” like a madman. I scared him and honestly scared my dad as well. Not my best moment. I’m lucky I did not have a weapon with me, I see nothing but red in these moments.  

Thankfully this was a wake up call, I was much more conscious throughout the rest of the trip. Something about Vancouver just triggers me. Something about being disrespected triggers me. 

I’ve long had anger management issues throughout my entire life. And it has cost me dearly. 

As Horace wrote: “Anger is a short madness.”

If I am honest, I am angry most of the time. Angry at the world, angry at myself for not doing better, at the idiot corrupt elites and politicians, old colleagues & business partners who treated me badly, rude people, idiots on X/aka Twitter. Most of the time, I bottle it up or transmute it into more positive things like an insane work ethic. It’s dirty and negative fuel and it works so damn well. But as I’ve gotten older, this only gets you so far. 

I’ve learned that anger is a loss of control. And as a man, if you lose control, you lose. Period. It’s about remaining calm, cold and collected in these moments. That is how you win. 

So I exercise & train hard, I meditate, I sleep well, I breathe and count to 10. I try to de-personalize. Then I see the situation more clearly and then act accordingly. 

Ford Frick once said: “Keep your temper. A decision made in anger is never sound.” 

Or better said for Godfather fans, be Michael Corleone who was always calm & controlled, not Sonny Corleone whose raging temper got him killed. Note to self here.